Monday, July 18, 2011

Back to square one

I had hoped to be able to update again with happy news.  Alas, I am on the job search again.  My year of service with Americorps is over.  I had been preparing for the end for a few months by sending out my resume, applying for jobs, the usual.  A friend at work recommended me for an awesome job at a local nonprofit organization.  The position was coordinating local volunteers and school systems to teach work readiness and entrepreneurial skills to students.  Perfect!  I made it to the second round of interviews.  Then I started doing something against my better judgment.  Dreaming.  Planning.  Envisioning what my new life might be like.

You can guess the rest.  I did not get the job.  To say I was very disappointed would be an understatement.  Devastated was/is more like it.  Close, but no cigar.  I went from preparing to move into a new apartment to wondering how in the world I'm going to make my next student loan payment and put gas in my car.  An Americorps paycheck wasn't exactly breaking the bank...but it was steady income.

So, I am back at square one.  And therefore, I am going to use this to solicit prayers, job leads, whatever anyone can contribute.  As for the prayers, pray that I keep my sanity.  That I don't get consumed by worry/frustration/anger.  That I can learn how to keep trusting and hoping.  As for the job leads, I'm pretty much open at this point.  I'd prefer to stay in the nonprofit or service related fields.

To keep this from being utterly depressing, I do have a happy bit of news.  I'm going to Honduras next week!  Two groups from our church will be staying and working at a girl's orphanage where two of my friends have been faithfully serving.  Look for many many pictures when I get back!